DEALING WITH ANXIETY

I choose to share with you this sensitive topic that affected my life in a way that I was not expected hoping that I can help someone. YOU ARE NOT ALONE! 

Well for the ones that suffer of ANXIETY I need to mention one thing : ANXIETY CAN BE FIXED !

Well to make the story short I’m going to jump directly by defining ANXIETY  : 

1.a .feeling of worry, nervousness, or unease about something with an uncertain outcome.

"he felt a surge of anxiety"

b.a nervous disorder marked by excessive uneasiness and apprehension, typically with compulsive behaviour or panic attacks.

2.strong desire or concern to do something or for something to happen.

How I was felling? Oh well no so well ! 

Literally I was all the time worried that something will happen to me or to the people I love . I was scared to walk on the street alone, scared of any possible accident that could happen , scared of dark places, of people . I was passing on a daily basic a nightmare, the worst period of my life . You do not have control of your feelings , emotions , you start imagine, overthinking , your breath its getting harder and harder….and you struggle ,and struggle to control ! To not be obvious for the people who doesn’t know whats wrong with you . They are looking strange and judgmental . Meanwhile  inside of you its a fight with yourself… and you loose it… your breath …no air…you can’t feel your legs ..you fall…was very intense 5 minutes of panics , fears, tears, loosing control of everything …Sometimes 5 minutes were like hours of continuously anxiety attacks.

These are just few examples how I used to fell ! 

I developed this feeling of fear one year ago but I was not giving importance  I thought it’s just temporary , nothing serious . 

In the same time I  start avoiding situations, Start drinking more than normal , I was scared to not do a mistake , scared of not being perfect, etc . Was such confusing thoughts and emotions that was affecting literally my personal life, my carrier. I used to get so stressed and nervous that I was not recognising myself . I could not sleep at night(was just thinking and thinking) , I could not focus , I lost my interest of doing things that I use to love , I was always tired and alone. 

One day I decided that I can’t continue like this and I decided to tell everyone what I feel . This was the first step of healing . Talking with everyone about my problem and making them to understand what I felt all of them tried to protect me , help me, understand. 

I gave up on my job and I took time for myself to make things that I used to love, I went to places that relaxed me, I spent time with myself , my dear ones and try to fix this Anxiety . 

ASK FOR HELP !!!

 I asked for help from a specialised doctor resident at psychological institution of Iasi called Olaru Radian Alexanru. He’s guidance helped me a lot . Most of the doctors recommend therapy or pills . Im totally against pills in this type of situation so I start following a program of empowering, auto stimulation and relaxation .  Im still in touch with him one time per month but I’m better I feel like im me again. 

If you need to know few techniques that helped me do not hesitate to ask me or if you need I’ll give you he’s email in order to get in contact with him directly . 

PS; If you suffer of ANXIETY do not be ashamed to talk about as much as you can believe me it helps a lot . Do not be ashamed to ask for help ! You know how many people are passing thru this? A lot? 

Putting outside your feelings it’s the first step of throwing out of the window this sickness.

Anxiety transformed me in a different person that was not fitting anymore in that time and space There are out there so many people passing same situation as me but most sad it’s that some of them are loosing themselves. These people needs help , especially young people . Parents always pay attention of your teenagers. !!! Hey Humans! be kind with each other you never know what other people are passing right now. 

It took me 3 months to get better but now I’m more happy that I used to be before, I’m more confident with myself that I ever been, I’m ready to leave again to the fullest in the most beautiful ways ever . 

STAY SAFE ALL OF YOU AND GIVE A SMILE TO EVERYONE AROUND YOU MAYBE THEY ARE IN NEED OF :)